I was married to my best friend for 12 years before he was given the diagnosis of stage 4 gastroesophageal cancer in 2018.He passed away in 2019 after a life-changing journey. This is my uncensored real-life journey of caring for someone with cancer and how I coped with the emotions and expectations surrounding bereavement and grief. It is written using real thoughts and feelings and based on factual events.It provides a raw insight into the pure emotions experienced on a day-to-day basis and how,ultimately, I used those experiences to forge my way through bereavement and onto an inspirational journey of finding hope,