What you are about to read is from a journal that was started as a project in therapy in 1975. I was asked to write the more prominent events of my life starting with the present and work backwards to the earlier years of my life. I continued that journal for many years in many forms, those events that have played important parts in my life. They have not always been good fortune for me. They have mostly been traumatic and have influenced the makeup of my emotional well being and perceptions of people around me. Those events around my birth and shortly after having been recorded and remembered from the versions my mother and family have told me. Where allowed, I have embellished to some extend the entries to give credence to events that are lacking in factual memory or written history. The embellishment does not make then any less true. My mother has always been surprised at my ability to remember events that happened at such an early time in my life. She would claim it was impossible to have such memories at such a tender age. She failed to recognize the fact that the subconscious does register and hold in reserve such events that were traumatic and painful to be both physically and emotionally. Often these memories would surface and reveal some part of my childhood that were forgotten. Where other memories have always been present, and foremost as a part of life as far back as I can remember.