You must realize that you are made to be great but in a way different from that of others. As a young man, my now-bishop Eugene Johnson in Madison, Wisconsin, always made the statement "Wake up, you sleeping Giants."
If you can only realize that there is nothing wrong with you. God made you that way for a reason. Now that you are in the knowledge of the way of God, all the so-called bad things that you have gone through were just your life teachings. You are now prepared, more than others are in that area, to go back in not as you were but as a messenger to bring out others.
WAKE UP, YOU SLEEPING GIANT.